Late Starts and Missed Timing
I’ll be there in five minutes.
Five hours later, I’ll be there in five minutes.
This was a quote. From Kanye on his song Late, and the hook just sampled or chanted , I’ll be late for that.
There’s been so many times in my life where I’ve been late.
My timing was just off.
I felt stupid.
I felt less of a man because of my lack of discipline and just irresponsibility.
How could I let time go by?
How could I let this situation, this opportunity go by?
Just like that.
And my sense of awareness was just at an all-time low, but I ended up turning that around.
The Hospital Room That Changed Everything
It’s September 2008, and I’m looking at my mother in the hospital bed, not knowing what was to come.
It was THEE event that would change my life forever.
We were talking and she was laying in her bed, you know, watching TV , kind of dozing off, waking back up.
She was asking, where certain people were, that were in my life at the time.
And I didn’t have an answer for her.
It was just more of, you know, people, maybe at work or, you know, just not there.
She was just wanting to be around, you know, our people.
I always think about that moment.
Where are these people?
She asked them to be here and they weren’t.
Months after she passed, I talked to my friend about that moment.
They regret it to this day about not being there on time.
Not being there on time and they live with parts of that regret, to this day…
The Exam and the Two-Point Failure
It’s April 2019 and I am in an office or classroom at ICC, our local junior college.
I’m taking my exam to become a personal trainer.
And I felt confident going in.
I felt I put the time in, I felt I studied, I created voice notes that I would read off from the book, the NASM book.
I would listen to my voice and thought that would help me study more and retain information.
When I got there and started taking the test, I realized this stuff is jumbled.
Or did I not put the right amount of time in it to study accurately.
I left that room full of question, doubt, and uncertainty.
When I got when I got home, I was able to see my test scores
Only to see, I failed.
By two points!!!!
Oh, that crushed me because that was the all to end all.
That….. was the ultimate test, and I failed.
Seeing Both Sides of the Coin
Failure has been on my mind a lot lately.
So I have to ask myself, why do I feel like that?
What is timing?
My view of timing has totally changed.
Within the last few months,
I’m realizing that, I have been blessed with time
Being allowed to operate within time as opposed to those who hasn’t.
I’m starting to clock my hours.
Starting to clock my minutes of what it is that I’m doing.
It seems that I can only look at the negative, the failure.
There’s always two sides to a coin.
If failure was a side of a coin, it would be tails…
In that same point, there are heads
There is positivity.
What can I learn from this, even though I feel negative?
From Nothing to Something
Where do I have success at?
I have success in my relationship.
I have success in my home, my ability to go from starting off as a full time cook to a full time personal trainer in 2017
Now, I may not be where I want to be, but it’s better than where I’ve been.
I wouldn’t have gotten here if I would have sat in my failure.
Time Looks Different Now
My value of time is a lot different today than it was in 2017.
I’m a bit more critical.
On one side of the coin, I feel like I’m late to the party, but on the other side, I feel I’m right on time.
Im right where I need to be.
I’m right where I need to be to correct my imperfections.
To correct my wrongs.
Because of this, I feel optimistic.
It’s….what side of the track do I want to stand on?
Optimism…
on the positivity side or the negative side?
Each comes with its own set of, you know, rules.
The Risk of Hope
If I stay on the optimistic side of POSITIVITY, then I run into a chance of being naive.
If I stay on the optimistic side of NEGATIVITY, I feel like I can miss my opportunity.
My opportunity to change.
My opportunity to become something more than what I am right now.
There is purpose because I do have life.
Realizing this, of having life
Being blessed to have life, is another chance to start over, another chance to start better.
There’s another chance to improve.
There’s another chance to get rid of things that are holding me down.
The Phone Call That Changed Everything
After I failed that test, I just felt defeated, depleted.
But that same week, within that same week, I got a phone call that changed my life forever.
It gave me the positive outlook that I needed to go forward, that that mistake
That failure by two points did not define me
I began to acquire clients and begin to change their lives for the positive
I’ve been on that wave ever since.
I’ve gone through more people than I can count, more than I can remember
Encountering people, getting them started on their fitness journey, and they go off to complete their fitness journey or continue it
Whether it be with me or without me, either way, it was a spark.
I was a spark for somebody.
Being a Spark, Even While Empty
At the same time, I’m feeling less than
I’m feeling incomplete.
I’m feeling just….. void.
I was still a positive in somebody’s life.
I was still able to provide something for somebody.
Looking at that whole process, the logistics of it
To get somebody to get under my wing to become a client
Those relationships develop more to, friendships.
That just goes to show you at the same time while there’s negativity going on.
There’s also positivity going on.
It’s just opening my eyes to be aware of that.
The Fast Year of Loss
My cousin passed in 2024
That whole year just went by so fast.
2024 just went by so fast.
It was just a blink.
I can just see where I just lost so much critical time, of taking care of things that needed to be taken care of
……because I didn’t feel any type of hope.
I didn’t feel any type of type of light at the same time while that’s going on.
I have people around me believing, and praying for healing and restoration.
It made me realize how much time that I have.
The time that I have is to speak more on positivity
Spend more on believing
Spend more on hope
Spend more on going forward with the positives.
Rooted in Hope, Anchored in Faith
At the same time, while there is some negativity going on,
putting my mind on positive things,
putting my mind on hope and going through the source of hope,
is my God.
I’ve been talking so much about that lately in these last couple of posts is because it’s actually what’s going on in real time.
Words That Still Echo
One of the last conversations my cousin had with me, was about my voice.
I can’t quote a verbatim, but I remember he said, “If you could talk to your audience like how you talk to me, I would like that.”
More more or less.
That always stuck with me.
Me and Shun had our own type of conversations that we would have
He was like, “I believe people would like the way you talk to them, if you talk to them like how you talk to me.”
So I’ve been working on that because he doesn’t have the ability to really see it in real time, in real life……….here.
Grief and Time Lost
Well, I can sulk about him, him being gone and how that has affected me
I’ve wasted so much time.
Not to say that I cannot grieve, but I wasted a lot of time in sorrow.
And it’s so tough because you do feel like
Should I have grieved?
Should I have grieved this long?
Because there are things that are continually going on.
And I’m telling you, this is the way life just works.
There are going to be craziness going on.
Crazy things going on that’s going to mess with my mind, but
I’ve got to try to find a way to stay centered and enjoy the life that I’m provided.
Try to make the best of it.
The key word is try.
If you have time
If you’re blessed with the time……try.
If at first, you don’t succeed, you try again.
Day One Meals – More Than Just a Name
This is one of the reasons why I named my meal prep services for my clients Day One Meals because weekend calories don’t count.
I did a blog post about that a few years ago.
We always think about. Oh, Monday is a reset day.
Even though I ate crazy and indulged, with it like that, Friday, Saturday and Sunday, we’re going to start off fresh Monday.
While Sunday people may think, but you know what?
You can’t do that.
I will fight back and say, yes, you can, because anytime you are ready to change your life and start all over.
It’s DAY ONE
There have been plenty of day ones in my life, and I know there are plenty of day ones in your life.
So hence the name DAY ONE MEALS, because here comes Monday.
The weekend was just over with.
You know, you indulged, and now it’s time to get back on track.
We got to start somewhere.
It’s Time to Start
So my message to you is just start.
If you feel like you are wasting your time and time is getting away from you, it is slipping away from you and you feel like you may not have enough time time to start today.
You don’t feel like you have the time to work out and take care of yourself.
You won’t have… Any time.
You won’t have any time at all.
You’ll be gone, removed from this world.
So health as wealth
The time that you spend, spend it wisely.
Spend it in investing in your health, even if it is for 45 minutes a day.
I have options where we can work out via Zoom, as long as you got some workout equipment, dumbbells, or what may have you, resistant bands, then.
I got you.
But if you can make it…
get in your car and drive to my home gym so we can work out
Even if it’s one day a week……because it’s never too late until it is too late.
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